Perca Pikiran

Segala yang bernyawa akan mati pada waktunya. (QS Ali Imron: 185).   Sudah hampir setahun kita hidup dengan COVID-19. None predicts it's gonna be this bad, like real bad. Tidak perlu menuding siapa yang salah atau siapa yang paling bertanggung jawab atas musibah yang tidak berkesudahan ini. Kasihan mental kita yang sudah babak belur jadi makin depresif nantinya.   Beberapa bulan terakhir, keadaan di Indonesia menjadi semakin parah. Tidak terhitung kerabat yang positif COVID-19 dan akhirnya meninggal. Belum lagi pemberitaan yang menerangkan kesulitan dalam mendapatkan perawatan di RS. Pada suatu titik, saya sampai di keadaan yang sudah tidak kaget lagi ketika ada rekan-rekan yang positif COVID-19. Meskipun tetap kalut dan sedih, tapi reaksi lebih ke "oh?". Itu bukan berarti saya cuek ato tidak peduli, hanya saja lelah.   Saya membuat postingan ini sebagai bahan refleksi dan persiapan jika nanti ternyata saya juga mendapat giliran untuk dipanggil Allah SWT. Saya tidak tahu ...

Judulnya sepertinya uwow. Dulu, saya kepikiran, sepertinya saya tidak ingin mendapati diri saya menjadi tua, tidak berdaya, pikun dsb. Jadinya, ya saya ingin pergi di usia yang gak tua-tua banget. Mati muda (ya gak muda-muda banget). Astaghfirullah. Astaghfirullah. Astaghfirullah. Apalah yang saya tau tentang umur, ya kan? Prerogatif Allah itu. Namun, beberapa bulan terakhir ini, saya kayak ditampar. Saya mendadak takut mati. Duh, cukup gak ya bekal saya. Duh, orang tua saya gimana? Adek-adek juga? Duh, saya belum punya yang mau diwariskan. Duh, saya belum nikah. *eh Duh, saya takut dilupakan. Duh, apa kabar amal jariyah. dan serangkaian insekuritas lainnya. Jadi, saya sempat merenung sebelum tidur dengan pertanyaan yang sama. Mau saya apa sih? Apa yang sudah saya capai? Apa yang sudah saya tinggalkan? Saya evaluasi lagi tuh visi misi hidup (trust me, ini gak muluk2 banget kok). Intinya saya jadi berpikir halah masih segitu-gitu aja kok udah pede mikirin mati muda. Saya nuli...

source : https://www.garow.me/tags/ahspmusic   Before, I write about this gig, I think it's plausible for me to explain why and how I love this band. In early 2010, I happened to watch their performance at Langit Musik or somewhere else. It was joint performances. Actually, I wanted to see Adhitya Sofyan's gig but AHSP's ca ught my attention at that time. So, I looked them up and found one or two of their songs (Justify and The Break Up). I was totally captivated about how that songs were delivered. The lyrics was simple like telling stories, but it was arranged so beautifully. There was not any official music streaming service at that time, so I found it hard to seek their album. I had to order or bought them at the special record stores. So, it was a good time watching their performance live. Yeah, the perks of being an indie. . Well, I was really excited when I know they released new album and would hold a live c...

August. What is the first thing that pops on your mind when you read that words. Many of you will ponder about our Independence Day, I supposed. And yeah, in this month, in the exact 17th, Indonesia celebrate its 71st Indepedence Day. Many of us had been told all of stories about how our founding fathers achieved our freedom by sweat, tears and blood. Source: blog Djarumbeasiswaplus (accessed from https://blog.djarumbeasiswaplus.org/rerisaputra/2013/10/13/merah-putih-di-ufuk-utara/) According to Merriem-Webster Dictionary, nationalism defines a sense of national consciousness exalting one nation above all others and placing primary emphasis on promotion of its culture and interests as opposed to those of other nations or supranational groups. In the early perspective, primodialist one, nationalism is decribed as perceived tendency of human as part of distinct group affiliated by birth i.e. Javanese, Sundanese, Aborigin etc. As time goes by, this perspective evolves int...

Source : Islamic Thinking (dipost di path saya juga) Akhir-akhir ini saya sedang mellow. You know, when everything seems pretty hard yet you don't have anyone to rely on. *dari kalimatnya aja dah melow2 gini*. Pernah sih pada suatu ketika saya mikir berat juga ya. Meanwhile saya bukanlah tipe yang curhat mengenai masalah-masalah. I will tell the world in most cryptic way yet i need to be understood. So stupid right? *Giiiiiiiirrlll*. Ketika saya mikir kok gini amat ya saya. Trus saya mikir lagi, that is just the way i am, i just need to compromise a little. Gitu aja terus sampe Messi pindah ke Madrid (amit-amit, ketok meja kayu 3x). Tulisan ini saya bikin untuk pengingat saya di masa depan. It’s okay to feel pathetic so this moment needs to be archived for future purpose. Yep, this is one of those moments. When you feel like you are on the lowest point (yet?). Still, no need to be worry. You can't go any lower, right? I perfectly aware that someday in the future i...

Hello again! Sudden thought came up this evening, as i grow older (and maybe unlikely wiser or maturer) i became less courage to speak up what i feel. I dunno that is because I am an introvert one (introvert would not wrote this, like seriously) or i kind of conscious about what people perceive who I am. Maybe that is why i am more comfortable to write this on blog instead ranting here and there on my socmed. Anyway  speaking of which, do that mean i am not completely honest being myself? Or just simply i want to keep inside not to share to others? I think that is not pretentious. Some people grew up being judgemental for which I don't respect at all. As much as I want to ignore those person, a tiny little part about what they said would bug any part of my head, is it?  Well,except wishing for happiness for me and closest people around me , I also  hope that God will give me more courage. Courage to speak out what I feel, courage to admit my mistakes, courage to do what i...

Lama saya gak nulis dan banyak hal terjadi. To the point ya, pernah denger tentang Anger Management? The term  anger management  commonly refers to a system of  psychological therapeutic  techniques and exercises by which someone with excessive or uncontrollable  anger  and  aggression  can control or reduce the  triggers , degrees, and effects of an angered  emotional  state. -- wikipedia Intinya sih tentang bagaimana cara kita mengendalikan emosi (dalam hal ini amarah). Nah, as I know about myself ya. Saya paling susah mengendalikan amarah. Issues came out and i would blow out. Itu ada bagus dan jeleknya sih. Bagusnya saya jadi gak pendendam tapi jeleknya ya itu tadi pengendalian diri saya rendah. Tapi saya perhatikan akhir2 ini, saya terlalu toleran. Ada banyak hal yang bisa bikin saya kecewa atau marah, potentially can make me throw tantrum here and there tapi saya diam saja dan senyum2. Ada teman yang bilang," Age is not...

Iyak, kapan hari itu saya ngetuit kalimat di atas. Bukan bermaksud apa2 cuma saya agak jengah sama BM yang beredar tentang saving-our-nature-campaign dengan dalih kalau alam sudah sekarat. Spare me please! Menurut saya, hal seperti itu salah satu bentuk arogansi manusia yang secara tidak langsung self-proclaimed kalo mereka bisa menyelamatkan alam. Inti pesannya itu memang baik, bagaimana kita membiasakan diri  untuk tidak melakukan sesuatu yang dapat merusak alam. Membakar plastik, meminimalisasi pemakaian kertas/plastik, hemat air dsb. Alam bisa menyelamatkan dirinya sendiri tapi manusia tidak. Alam selalu mencari keseimbangannya dengan siklus yang terjadi walaupun memakan waktu yang lama. Peran manusia adalah membantu alam mempercepat siklusnya mencapai keseimbangan. Itu simbiosis mutualisme. Lagian, kalo alam sudah mulai gak seimbang bukannya manusia yang pertama kali merasakan dampaknya? Maybe, it is more considerate if the title of issue is loving-nature-campaign ...

So, I heard a lot about the "new iPhone" and "new iPod" today. I must say that Tim Cook put quite a lot of effort to keep Apple Inc maintain its highest spot. Seeing the rivalry between Apple and Samsung nowadays kinda reminiscing my memories about frenemies between Apple-Microsoft. Who does not know Bill - Steve rivalry after all. And these is my review about Steve Jobs biography written by Walter Isaacson. To be honest, I have finished reading this book quite long time ago, but I just managed to finish its review last month. Pardon please. Hohohooo. Steve Jobs by Walter Isaacson (image from amazon) Usually I take short period of time to finish a book. Regardless the book's pages, if I find it interesting, I would like to finish it in one shot no matter what (* cough* Harry Potter and The Order of Phoenix  *cough* :D ). I forgot since when i became Apple-stan. Sooo, I was kinda expecting a lot when -finally- Steve Jobs bio's was going to be re...

Saya merasa cukup bangga dengan diri saya sendiri akhir2 ini. Ketergantungan saya dengan gadget yang saya punya cukup jauh berkurang. Pun ditambah kesadaran akan pentingnya bersosialisasi dengan sekitar ketimbang nunduk mantengin hape. Sudah jadi kesadaran umum sih ya kalo smartphone itu seringkali merampas sebagian waktu kita yang seharusnya untuk bersosialisasi. Seringkali saya merasa annoyed  jika seseorang mulai sibuk dengan hapenya, padahal saya tahu kondisinya tidak sedang urgent untuk melihat hape secara terus menerus. Suatu saat ketika saya sedang di bandara, saya melihat ada sekelompok anak muda seusia saya yang kelihatannya sudah lamaaaaa sekali tidak pernah bersua. Darimana saya tau? Ya soalnya, pas awal2 ketemu mereka heboh bercipika-cipiki dan loncat2 girang gitu (ababil banget gak sih? :P). Sayangnya kehebohan itu palingan cuma berlangsung 10 menit saja. Menit ke-11 mereka sudah sibuk dengan hapenya masing2, bahkan ada yang ngeluarin tablet dan sibuk surfing kesana...

There are too many things that i want to reach. You know, when your mind still in idealistic mode, you keep thinking something big like world peace, making world for a better living etc.. Hahahahaa.. No, i'm just kidding. But, as i remember, when i was in elementary school, I really wanted to become Minister of Social, simply because i felt really pity when i see a lot of homeless people. I mean for us, as human being, we want to reach personal achievement, something that we can hold onto, something great and something can used to boost self esteem perhaps. (FYI : It's on the 2nd top of Maslow hierarchy of needs) But as time goes by we become more realistic. We do a lot of compromise about everything in life to ourself. Here, i don't wanna talk about passion per se. I've read too many post about passion written by my friends and I definitely agree with most of them regarding same conditions with me. In short, I'm really envious with all of you wh...

Tiba2 saya jadi kepingin nulis hal2 absurd tentang kantor saya ini. Username Intra Ada beberapa pegawai yang sudah pensiun di kantor saya semenjak saya datang pertama kali. Awal saya bekerja di sini, saya belum punya username sama password intranet. Kata supervisor bisa pake username pegawai yang sudah pensiun. Begitu berlangsung selama berbulan-bulan. Sebenernya sampe sekarang saya belum punya juga sih. Belum sempat (males) menanyakan ke Umum. Nah, pas kapan itu saya ngobrol dengan beberapa pegawai prodip, ternyata mereka juga jarang make usernamenya sendiri. Lah?? Ada satu username pegawai pensiun yang menjadi semacam rebutan buat log in intra. Jadi barangsiapa di kantor yang bisa log in dengan user itu, kayak dapet semacam kepuasan pribadi gitu deh. Pleeeaaaseee!!! Suatu hari da yang tanya, "Ini yang log in pake user XXXX siapa??" Kebetulan waktu itu saya yang pake. Dan kemudian (kayaknya) derajat kekerenan saya naik beberapa tingkat. -- amit-amit Padahal saya mak...

This post is so-called lazy-posting. Yepp. There are two reasons why. There are lot more things i have to post but i dunno how to manage those story-line (Yes Pensieve, i need youuu) There is nothing special to post. I go with first option. Too many branches in my mind. Long story short, here they are: I had veeeeery good holiday. Wonderful little escape as ever. Hhhahaa. But, as the consequences, I also had little broken-heart when holiday was over. *super sob sob*. More heart-breaking when i saw my balances in my bank account. *straight face* I had watched The Avengers!!! It was very cooooooool!!!! But, unfortunately i didn't get best spot to watch it. still trapped in long line to grab the tickets. So there were just left over seats. *hiks*  Really damned box-office movie indeed!!  Checking all to-eat-list!! Burger Blenger Bintaro sektor 1, Ramen Sanpachi, Rotiboy. *dance dance*. Living without any gadgets for two days-one night straight! It was so okay. You mu...

Dulu, saya sangat suka pelajaran sejarah mulai dari ngapalin raja2 kerajaan Kutai, Kudungga-Aswawarman-Mulawarman sampe baca biografi Joseph Bros Tito pas belajar Perang Dunia. Sukaaaa banget! Konyolnya sempet kepikiran pengen bikin mesin waktu gara2 gemes pas Teuku Cik Di Tiro diracun Belanda padahal menang perang beberapa kali. Yakali bikin mesin waktu sama kayak ngerakit tamiya. :P Ketika udah di bangku kuliah, saya tetep suka baca2 sesuatu yang berbau sejarah, biografi tokoh misalnya. Bedanya, ketika itu saya baca dari sudut pandang lain. Misal, ketika di bangku sekolah, saya belajar banyak pemberontakan mulai dari PRRI/Permesta, juga DI/TII dari buku text, nah ketika di kampus saya baca salah satu biografi yaitu biografi Syafruddin Prawiranegara , salah satu pimpinan pemberontakan PRRI, yang juga pernah jadi Presiden Pemerintah Darurat Republik Indonesia sewaktu Agresi Militer II. Saya sampe mikir, kok bisa ya? Kenapa sampai memberontak? Dari situ saya mulai mempertanyakan keb...

Hihihi, biasanya saya males ngerjain pr2 semacem ini, tapi pertanyaan dari   Blog Amel   asik buat dikerjain, jadi ya iseng2 lucu posting ini deh. :D Kalau kamu jadi tokoh dalam sebuah novel, kamu mau jadi karakter kayak apa? Pengen jadi Mycroft alias kakaknya Holmes. Dari pertama kali baca novelnya Doyle langsung naksir sama tokoh ini. Selain karena lebih pinter dan cool dari Holmes, karakternya juga hampir mirip sama saya. Kamu paling ngerasa mahir masak apa? Boleh pula dibagi alasan dan resep ala kamunya. (Jawaban seperti air, nasi, telur goreng, dan mie instan ga masuk kriteria yaa) Bubur candil (candil : kayak biji salak di kolak2 itu). Ini sih bisa dari kelas 5 SD karena mutung sama Ibu gara2 jarang dibikinin bubur ini padahal favorit banget2, malah dikasih bubur kacang ijo mulu (dari kecil saya hobi kena anemia soalnya). Jadi saya belajar bikin sendiri, pas udah bisa dan dirasa enak pernah tiap hari bikin sampe ngabisin tepung kanji sekilo selama seminggu. ...

You bet, I don't have any particular thing to write about yet. But, i wanna sent a post. But, i don't have any idea. And so another but but but... Maybe, I need to make  writing challenge like Tanaya ? Hhahaha.. Just quick updates in few days earlier : Barca has lost in Classico. *sobsob*. I was grown up enough to accept their defeat but I was not still wise enough to respond any comments of my-dear-fellow-soccer-friends outside. I mean, with those Barca-referee-close-relationship-comment. Oh please. Go figure before you talk craps,dear! Yes, I feel sensitive when we talk about my fave soccer club. Hehehe.. Subjective also sometimes. But, come ooooonn... Barca didn't make the way to final Champion.. *supersobsob*. Yes, i do know, it is not year of Barca. After every possible title they had last year, this year is another way down to achieve their dope again. I do realize, you won't respect any winning you get when you never know the feeling of terrible lost . *nod ...

Have you ever feel like you wanna across beyond the boundaries? Morale or religious way? Sometimes, i think about how it feels when you committed some crimes or sins? Gathering my scrap mind, I would like to recap some of my darkest thought i ever had (please forgive me,God *istighfar2). Getting drunk : It's horrible sin even worse than raping or murdering (because it is source of other horrible bad actions). Sometimes, I think how it feels when I'm getting drunk. I mean that you will lost your consciousness right. So what most embarrassing-thing  you can do? And what vodka/ martini tastes does like? I get my body trembling when i think of it. Can it be any worse than you lose control to your mind yet your body because of getting drunk? Murdering. Can i commit perfect crime without any witness and proofs? What possible trick to lose track of any evidences? Yes, i blame my conan or mystery-novels i ever read by thinking those stupid thing. But, no worries. I...

Sekarang kamu pegang smartphone apa? Blackberry? iPhone? Android phone? Sejauh pengamatan saya, hampir semua temen2 seangkatan pasti dah pegang smartphone masing2. Selain karena kami dah mampu beli (pake uang sendiri,Alhamdulillaaaaah..), juga karena ngebantu banget buat urusan komunikasi. "eh katanya si anu mau nikah sama si itu ya?" "hah masaaa??" "iya,barusan status bbm (ato chatgrup BBM ato tweet ato grupchat YM ato invitation event FB dsb)-nya gitu" Puncak heboh2nya punya smartphone itu ya pas uang rapelan turun. Lucu deh kalo nginget2. Kelompok magang saya mendadak jadi sering main ke Roxy pulang kantor. Voilaaaa. Besoknya tuiter clientnya dah pada ganti aja gitu.. Hahahaha.. Malahan di kelompok magang saya dulu yang berjumlah 17 orang sempet ada persaingan antar gadget : Blackberry vs Android. Konyol dan gak penting emang. Tapi seru. Saya gak beli langsung pas uang rapel turun. Selain karena belum butuh, juga karena mainstream banget ya lan...

Akhir2 ini teman2 saya sedang terobsesi banget dengan yang namanya jalan2. Jadi setiap ada long weekend atau kesempatan2 dari cuti, sebagian besar pasti memanfaatkannya untuk jalan2. Kenapa gak mudik? Itu udah, di awal2 penempatan pas lagi sering homesick. Mungkin karena faktor dimana kita udah pegang uang sendiri dan alhamdulillah bisa menyisihkannya sekedar buat jalan2. Jalan2 kemana aja? Bali, Lombok, Singapore, Thailand, Malaysia, Bangka Belitung dll Seru ya? Kamu udah kemana aja, Ki? Belum kemana2. Mentok2 ke Bandung, P.Seribu, Anyer, itupun jaman kuliah pas acara kelas atau ada keperluan. Awalnya sih, saya udah nyiapin list where-i-wanna-go gitu. Plus planning budget juga. Listnya gak jauh2 kayak list di atas. Saya masih inget heboh2nya pas ngobrolin destinasi jalan2 bersama teman2 saya. Mulai menjamurnya situs2, blog2, maupun buku2 traveling mungkin semacam jadi pendorong juga ya. Sampai akhirnya saya agak sedikit tertampar. Inget gk sama tulisan  INSECURE  s...

Set of Time : Monday,19th March 2012 Set of Place :Ria's Place, Train =========================================================================== You know, When i was at Jakarta, I barely could sleep. Three nights two days i just got not more than 5-hours-sleep in total. :D Last night at Jakarta, I slept at Ria's place, Slipi. I felt sorry for her too, she could sleep at 3am. Hohohoooo.. Chitchat-ing and watching many videos 'till almost dawn (Yes,yes my fault!). However, i had to catch up my train next morning at Senen. I was very afraid if i couldn't wake up on time. So, I decided not to sleep. But, it failed. I fell asleep and fortunately, i woke up right after adzan Subuh finished. Yeay. Getting prepared, being ready to Senen Station and going home. :D I had to wait for about 2 hours at railway stat in my-super-sleepy-head! I almost fell asleep again there. But, it railway stat, not airport, I felt unsafe here since i was alone. :( For keeping my eyes open, ...