Dirty Little Secret

Have you ever feel like you wanna across beyond the boundaries? Morale or religious way? Sometimes, i think about how it feels when you committed some crimes or sins?
Gathering my scrap mind, I would like to recap some of my darkest thought i ever had (please forgive me,God *istighfar2).

1. Getting drunk : It's horrible sin even worse than raping or murdering (because it is source of other horrible bad actions). Sometimes, I think how it feels when I'm getting drunk. I mean that you will lost your consciousness right. So what most embarrassing-thing  you can do? And what vodka/ martini tastes does like? I get my body trembling when i think of it. Can it be any worse than you lose control to your mind yet your body because of getting drunk?
2. Murdering. Can i commit perfect crime without any witness and proofs? What possible trick to lose track of any evidences? Yes, i blame my conan or mystery-novels i ever read by thinking those stupid thing.

But, no worries. I,by any means, NEVER do those thing above. Do you think i'm going insane?? No, no. They are just some of my curiosities that no-need-to-be-proven my self. Just off-the-record-scrap-mind. Even, I felt afraid just to write those at first place.

Does it only happen to me?